Sometimes in a relationship, there is no need to blame your partner because your relationship falters down, there is no need to point to your partner and say “It’s your entire fault why our relationship broke down!”, because most of the time we fail to acknowledge our own fault why a relationship ends, this is what I learn last Sunday at 3:00 am. My mentor was wide awake looking outside the rainy window. “Sir, not sleepy yet?”, he did not replied. I ignored his stubbornness, he is always like that but then again I saw empty bottles of gin and vodka, and I saw he is holding one more half-empty bottle. “Sir, is there something wrong?” still no reply. Then I start to wonder why, I texted his “Xian Lim” and also no reply. I manage to see his mobile phone and he seems to forget to shut it and so due to my curiosity I sneak a peek and there it was I saw:
“I deserve someone better than you and so do you, I am setting you free GOOD BYE!”
I tried to comfort him saying that he does not deserve him, that he was more greater if he has someone else wrapped around his arms. He laughed at me, “Kid you’re the 100th person that tried to comfort me, no need to do that.”, he took a glass poured a small amount and passed it to me “Cheers for my stupidity, for being so busy and for being blinded by my work.” I smiled and replied “Hats off to that sir, seems you’re not much as great as I am now.” I went outside and sneaked into his loptop, but I saw I in his facebook chat:
“I am sorry my Xian Lim, I acknowledge my fault on not focusing too much on you, I am so sorry but if you’re happy with your decision then I am happy too. I apologize for my mistakes, if you deserve someone better than me then I think I won’t run after you.”
“Sometimes some people are so tired of chasing other people, sometimes one has just to slow down and walk and let the other person run away from your grasp. Chivalry is dead kid, I am tired, I am not sad, I am just tired and wasted. I have to move forward now, there is no reason to cry over spilled milk, I am not drunk to be sober, I am just celebrating a love that is lost but yet treasured. Amidst the sorrow of losing someone is a happiness to be celebrated that at least somehow there was love even if for a short while.” he said. And so lesson learned, sometimes people don’t get sad or sober when they broke up, they are just celebrating a lost treasure worthy to be lost in time and space, without expecting to be seen again, and just letting it be lost.
